Feeling lost

Hey guys,

Well all of the two people that know about my blog :) I am struggling, and I just need to talk...so I am going to type. It is SO hard having Cody gone. I feel so alone, and I know I am not and I know what I am supposed to do and I know all the things that church has taught me to do, but right now I feel so helpless. I want God so fully, but I just feel like I am hurting and I am struggling to hold on with everything in me. Teaching is almost over, and I am thankful for the experience and also thankful that I now know that that is not what God has for me. I miss performing, I think about it everyday. I have thought about auditioning for several things, but UPTAS (I big theatre audition) fell through...it filled up to quickly. I asked God that if he didn't want me to audition that he would close the door, and he did! (I love it when its that clear :) Now I am thinking about sending in some stuff to audition for a Christian film. I think it would be amazing to be working with people that love God and are using their talents to further His kingdom. I have only ever worked in theatre that is the complete oposit, and while it is a ministry...it is a pretty draining one. That is why I got out of musical theater to begin with! Just be praying for me that God opens and shuts doors like he already has been doing, and that I would just follow His leading in my life. There is no other place I would rather be than in Gods will...I just need a clear picture of what that is (hahaha don't we all :) Thanks for listening, and if you made it to the end of this post without quiting I will give you $100!

Be Blessed,
Hayley

Here are some pics from thanksgiving

Me and Baby Hudson

Crazy Family!